Thursday, October 27, 2005

This Just In.....


Irving based Exxon Mobil has reported the largest quarterly profit EVER for any U.S. company.......$9.92 billion dollars.

What kind of bullshit is that?? And yet we are still paying high gas prices. According to the story this may start a chain of events to begin taxing Big Oil companies. I say they should be.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

If You Happen To See Me, Please Let Me Know. I'd Like To Talk To Myself.

I'm one of those people who when personal things are going down (and I do mean down) I tend to keep them inside. Unfortunately it all ends up coming out in a big sobbing mess at some point. That's what happened to me yesterday after work. I made the mistake of calling home and I ended up talking to my niece on the phone. As usual when I call home, I petty much sat on the other end of the phone listening to issues being vented. Most of this conversation had to do with her and her mother. That's when I lost it.

I hung up the phone and all of a sudden I started crying. It wasn't one of those pretty cries was one of the sloppy ones. I realized that this was happening because of a culmination of different things: work related, personal, and family. That night I had a talk with my roommate and I had this epiphany.....I'm emotionally bankrupt and I feel like I've lost myself.

I feel like an ATM that people are taking too many withdrawals from but depositing nothing to replenish what they are using. I find that I spend alot of time listening to people talk about their problems, helping them out when they are in a financial crunch, and just plain bending over backwards to make things easier for them. Yet I get very little in return. I'm not talking about a monetary return either....a simple "Thank you" or a show of appreciation would be more than enough. Is that too much to ask for? I spend so much time giving and giving support or a shoulder to cry on that by the time I get to myself I have nothing left. Nada. Zip.

Things at work have been pretty tight too. Being that my income is commission based finances are having to be watched right now. I cannot call home without getting an earfull of so-and so aren't talking to each other because of some really stupid (and I do mean S-T-U-P-I-D) fight or my brother's girlfriend is pregnant or mom's being absurdly rude to dad. Throw Mr. Lamont and how all his shit is affecting me into the mix and I'm at my wits end.

I'm supposed to go home for Thanksgiving and now I don't even want to bother. Growing up I always felt like my oldest sister Peggi had somewhat disconnected herself from the rest of the family. I never really understood why I felt that way but last night I did. If I can get this worked up being 500 miles away from them, then I don't even want to think about how I'd be if I was within 10 feet.

Maybe I'll get a sign. A big flashing sign that says "I'm sorry, you're transaction cannot be completed at this time." Think it'll work??

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Compass Bank Is E-V-I-L!

I am beyond pissed with my bank. Apparently Compass Bank has adopted a new practice in which they post items to your account in the order in which they are received. If you have a check clearing and a deposit also posting the same day, they will clear the check FIRST in the event that it was first in line.

What kind of crap is this?? So I've spent the past 2 days bank shopping and asking their policy on how they post debits and credits to their customers accounts. Wells Fargo, BofA, and Chase all said that regardless of what came in first they always post deposits before running any debits.

So not only did I call up Compass customer service, I also went inside a my branch and was even more furious when no one (and I spoke to 4 different people) even bothered to comfort me when I told them I was closing my account out on Friday. I now feel like this bank is taking complete advantage of their customers for the sole purpose of charging as many fees as possible. Sure they rebate any fees you get from using other banks ATM's, and their checking accounts are free with no charges for checks.....but I guess they felt they were losing too much money on this little scam. They use these tactics to lure you in and fuck you without any lube!!! OUCH!

Monday, October 17, 2005

They're At It Again!

Am I the only one who is tired of the scare tactics that the media uses? I've been reading a lot of this bird flu thingy that killed like 60 people in 2 years over in Asia. Now I keep reading stories about how scientists are terrified that it's going to mutate into a form that humans can pass and sweep Europe. To take procautions they are killing thousands of birds in areas where it's been detected.

Most of these places are in remote areas of Asian countries that have bird farms. I guess they are killing them because birds are migratory. But doesn't it take a long time before a virus can mutate? I may be wrong.

Remember the whole SARS thing a couple of years ago?? Now do you read much of anything on that?? Nope!!

I am so desensitized now that things like this don't even register anymore. I just read it and go on to the next story.

Friday, October 07, 2005

The Weekend In Advance.....

Another cold front came through last night and it's a slightly cool 50 degrees outside right now and kinda rainy. I've decided I'm not doing jack shit this weekend other than keeping my ass at home. Perhaps this has to do with me having a cold....but that's never stopped me before! I just partied way too hard last weekend and I think I paid for it all week. :-(

Last night I actually cooked....yes you heard me right. I made green chili enchiladas and refried beans. They came out ok but I don't think I put enough chili in them. It was either that or my cold kept me from really tasting them. I didn't get to eat any beans though because I forgot to turn the stove off and they all dried up.

I'm supposed to be doing dinner and a movie at home with Keithen but we'll see how that goes. Next weekend is going to be fun. Get your party shoes ready Sergio!!!