Sunday, February 27, 2005

Well DUH!

In today's news there was yet another story of someone dying because some dumb ass was headed the wrong way on a freeway. I've noticed that this is becoming more frequent. I begin to wonder, how stupid do you have to be to NOT notice that you are on the wrong side of they highway?? If you can't figure this out then you shouldn't be driving.

And what is it with people who have to slow down to 10 miles under the speed limit to answer their cell phone? If you can drive and talk on the phone at the same time then do one or the other, but don't do both.

Come on people....get with the program!

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Sidewalks Are An Evil Thing.

Cesar and I were in Austin this weekend. We didn't get to leave until about 8:00 on Friday night due to him having to work late, but we left anyways. By the time we got gas and got on the road it was almost 8:30. I got us there by 11:30.

We weren't able to make the function that we had intended to make, so we just went to the hotel and changed to go out. We headed out to this bar called Charlie's and had the worlds worst drinks. But then again what do you expect when they only cost $1!!! We met up with some people he knew and hung out. Regardless what Cesar says I don't think I was flirting!

The next day we got up to have lunch and went shopping. I got a pair of black Steve Madden's that Cesar was going to buy but didn't because they were too small (more on the tragedy of these shoes later.) We met up with the people from the night before and walked around downtown. Austin is one of the most different cities I've ever been to in Texas. It has this feel about it that no other city has. The city itself is pretty and the people are very relaxed and laid back. It's like you can walk around being yourself and no one will look at you weird or comment. I think that if I were to move there it's a place that I would enjoy living in.

Anyhoo...after an afternoon of walking, we all went to have drinks around 4:00 or so. I had a few Cosmopolitans that went straight to my head....but they were good! After our drinks we headed back to the hotel to rest before heading out for the evening. That night we went out to a place called Rain. It was a pretty cool place but not many people were there, so we went next door to another bar. That was kinda dead too but we still had a drink there while waiting for Cesar's friends to show and for Lamont's sister to arrive. We went back to Rain and all of a sudden it was packed! We ended up staying there the whole night because the atmosphere of the place and the people there were more our crowd.

After a night of drinking waaaay too many Cosmo's and breakfast afterwards we went back to the hotel. I had a little bit of trouble of walking and as I was heading towwards the stairs my left shoe hit the raised sidewalk and I went flying head first. Cesar thought this was quite a hoot and I thought he was going to fall down from laughing. The tragedy of it all is that I scuffed my new shoes. :-( Forget the fact that I bruised up both of my knees and elbow in the fall....I fucked up my shoes!!! Cesar's comfort of "I'm sure you can get that fixed" didn't help much. Now I have to find someone who can fix them for me.

We headed back on to Dallas on Sunday after having a late lunch and arrived safely around 5:30. We both decided to make periodic trips out of town just to get away from the maddness and frustration's of Dallas. It's always nice to go to a place you don't know and be around a different crowd of people. So whenever you're ready Cesar just let me know!!!

I'll be taking my shoes to a doctor very soon. :-(

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Hello? Is Anyone Home?

It has been quite some time since I've done any blogging. Since Christmas I've done zilch. I've just been so busy and there really is alot to write, but I'm not going to do it in one sitting. This way I can write over a few weeks and have stuff to write about!!!

Tomorrow I'm going out of town with Cesar to Austin (not Houston like he has written!!) and I'm really looking forward to it. The past 2 weeks have been shit. I had the flu last week and this week has been very stressful at work. I'm beyond frustrated with my new job. I've even begun to wonder if I made the wrong decision about leaving The Voice.

I had no clue that radio was going to be so difficult and I got my first big order this week. I even got an RFP (Request For Proposal) from an agency in Denver and I was beyond nervous beacause they were asking for so much. I just kept thinking "Don't screw this one up." The thought about possibly making the wrong choice has been very strong. The last thing I neeed is to be let go.

Being the overly-analytical person that I am, I've been analyzing my thoughts really in depth. Was I anxious to leave The Voice because I needed to see what else was out there? Would it be possible to go back if I got fired from Clear Channel? What would I do if I got fired and wasn't able to go back to The Voice? What would I do then? You can see how frantic my mind is. Today at lunch even cemented my anxieties.

I went to lunch with Sandra, this Account Executive for KZPS. She started about a week after I did in December and we were in the same training classes that month. We were at lunch and she said that Miguel (one of her co-workers who also started in December and was in our training classes) was fired yesterday. I was completely shocked. She proceeded to express her worries about getting fired as well. We started talking and I realized that all of our worrying was exactly the same.....perhaps we just weren't cut out for radio sales. Not only did Miguel get fired, but Yalonda (another KZPS AE that started at the same time as us) was told that she had to either have $10,000 booked within the next 2 weeks or she was out. Sandra is now scared that the same will be told to her. We had a long discussion and it kinda felt good being able to express my frustrations with someone who knew how I felt.

So I keep asking myself....have I gotten in over my head? I wanted this so bad but now I don't know if it's what I want. I'm so used to making things happen and knowing what I'm doing that I now feel like I have absolutely no control. I hate feeling like this. Having some sort of control over the situation is vital to me and necessary for me to feel comforable. I also tell myself that I have only been there for 2 months and that I haven't been there long enough to make a logical decision on my progress.

Just how long should I give myself? Am I just being paranoid? I'm in bad need of a confidence booster in my abilities to succeed in this.

I wish I knew a good shrink!!